Concerned

I finally told you
I nervously looked into your eyes but you didn’t say a word.
Turned your back towards me and
fell asleep.
That night killed me so
the next day i went to kill the rest of the life
i had pumping inside of me.
And you never asked about it,
i guess
it wasn’t your concern…

Someone asked me about you- I guess they didn’t know that we partied ways
&I almost missed you
Until
I recalled those nights
When I laid in our bed,
Looking at your Facebook,
Checking my messages,
Dialing your number,
Texting you,
Praying that you would come home
To me in one piece.
Just to bring me peace

But there was never peace.
Just old, broken pieces
of You that were recycled from other
women
Who got to enjoy my biggest priority
my only slice of joy
But we didn’t share the
misery,
the heartbreak, the struggle
that came from loving you.

That was mine, alone to endure.
But it was never your concern.

Now i’m all alone
looking at a screen…
scrolling through old memories , and messages
Trying to overstand the facts of our love
Did I give him too much of me?
Did I not give him enough?

I know you’re with someone else now
&that’s not my concern…

But I hope she does you dirty

You bastard.

Nyque B.

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